I'm not really certain what I did last week. It was my last few days of my break, and I certainly took full advantage, on Monday and Tuesday at least, of having nothing to do. LAZY!!! Last week was tough. I don't think I was 100% ready for the semester, especially since I feel like I spent a majority of the break sick. Then, on Tuesday, I got last semester's student narrative evaluations. I'd like to think that I can take criticism fairly well, but some of the things they were writing were plain ridiculous. For example, one student was frustrated that I had assigned some book problems and the answers were in a separate solution manual... that was supposed to be purchased at the bookstore. Well, apparently the student went to the bookstore to purchase it and the bookstore wasn't open. The complaint was that answers should be more accessible. WTF? Give me a break. Another student wanted to know
exactly what was on the exam. He or she tried to say that I thought telling them what was on the exam was the same as giving them the answers. Ugh... hello, I'm not telling you what is on the exam, and I certainly know the difference between the two. I think there were about 4 useful comments. The rest were complete junk. I wish that the bad ones didn't sting as bad as they do and that I could just be happy about the good ones. Unfortunately, I don't think it will ever get easier.
Then, on Thursday afternoon, I got the actual evaluations back. One student didn't learn anything in the class, which I was a little surprised about because no one failed. Maybe I need to re-evaluate my exam process. How could he/she really not learn anything? Wow. The evaluations weren't awesome, but they weren't awful either. Still, it just didn't make for a fun day or a fun activity.
Being that I am now 49 days and counting away from turning 30, it's finally starting to hit me. I was reading this blog the other day (part of being lazy last week), and the author was talking about doing a 30 before 30 list. I had thought about doing something similar, but now that I have 48 or 49 days left, I don't think that will happen. Part of me feels depressed because I'm not sure where the time has gone, and I'm not really sure if I think that what I've spent my time doing has been totally worth it. I did a little bit of math, that's right, they don't give PhDs to just anyone, and the girl is 22. She's married, is in law school, and just bought a house. Don't get me wrong, I don't believe that you have to accomplish x, y and z before age 30, but I do wish I could look back and say that I feel giving up n, o and p was worth gaining x, y and z.
If I had made a list, I don't even know what would be on it. Maybe I'll come up with a 40 before 40 list. I think the first thing on it needs to be to enjoy life more. It's too short to take it for granted.